My heart is heavy today. I dont have time to stop, I don't have time to be scared, I don't even have time for a break. I have to press on, I have to fight, I have to live. WHY ME??? Has anything ever just made you say why me? Like everybody looking at you, everybody wants something from you. You so caught up in trying to get everybody else right, that you scared to stop and help yourself. I MISS ME!!! Lol I'm feeling so stuck that all I can do is laugh, the tears won't come, and ill be damned if start to claim depression, but I really want to just shut down and stop. BUT... if I stop, then what happens. Everybody so used to me being so strong, they so used to having something to lean on. What happens when I stop ......................................................................................................................................................... EXACTLY. Nothing, when I stop aint nothing goin happen, everything goin stay still or get worse until
I start again. I'm feeling like the walls closing in, I'm feeling like I have to do something, like I have to do it now. But I'm lost, and I aint gettin no better. Not much else to say. Love you.
Rob Hill
