Thursday, August 28, 2008

The Prototype

I’m the type of guy who writes poetry
I like to read and I have big dreams
Plenty goals and I believe in love

I’m basically the type of guy who thinks romance is real
Long walks on the beach aren’t corny, they’re just not common
Flowers for no reason isn’t wack, it’s just spontaneous

The type of guy who doesn’t always understand but still listens
Not afraid to speak up and ask questions and I won’t agree just to shut you up
Never afraid of a compromise, but still prefer things my way

I’m the type to smile a lot and really believe they’re contagious
I’m goofy, and smooth, and the damn definition of confident
I epitomize swagger and truly feel I’m great

Of course I’m the type to overlook some simple things
I’m not too proud to apologize and admit when I’m wrong
Yes I’m hard-headed, and head strong, but I’m open minded

I’m the type of guy who genuinely just wants to see my girl smile
I’m not scared of watching lifetime on Sundays
And I’ll follow her in all the girly stores in the mall

Sure I’m the type to write love letters, call it corny
Of course a phone call is cool, and a quick text message in convenient
But putting a pen to the paper takes time and effort, and lasts a lot longer

Yeah I’m the type of guy who appreciates passion
I care whether you’re satisfied and comfortable
And I don’t mind doing whatever is possible to get you there

I’m the type of guy who believes in standing for something
One with standards and morals that I abide by
I am accountable and responsible for all my actions, and believe in making others better

I’m not the type of guy to believe in just giving up
Love is an almighty power, but it doesn’t just sustain itself
I’ll fight the fair fight until it’s over, win, draw, or lose

I’m the type of guy who loves who I am
I know who I am and desire to share that with someone
Plenty to give, plenty to share, plenty to love

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Dear Life

"Anger is an uncontrollable feeling that betrays what you are when you are not yourself. Anger is that powerful internal force that blows out the light of reason." - Ralph Waldo Emerson

My whole life it has always bothered me to hear the response, "Because I was mad." Things aren't just all of a sudden okay because you are mad. It is said in the bible that a person led by emotions is a double sided man, unstable in all his ways. People make so many life altering decisions in the midst of their anger and emotions.

I once said that "anger is an emotion that denies progress." Emotions are everything absent from logic, emotions are erattic and spontaneous. You are not who you truly desire to be when you are angry, the quote above is so powerful because it defines the emotion of anger as "uncontrollable." You may not be able to control the circumstances that spark anger within you, but you and solely you are responsible and can control the reactions you take as a result of whatever circumstance.

The quote says anger is an "internal force," it starts within and ends within. When you are outside of the "light of reason," you are in the dark. There is no direction in the dark. "Because I was mad," will never be a viable excuse for erratic and illogical actions. Sometimes its as elementary as counting to ten. Think first.

Rob Hill

Dear Life

To whom do I owe, except self and God?

When asked the above question, Ithought long and hard before answering. In a world engulfed in the "do me" attitude, many of us feel we have nothing to prove. In most cases we ask ourselves that same question often times leaving out the most important element; that being God.

I was once a self oppressor. Tying my own hands and giving the world credit for "making" me that way. If this didn't happen then I could have been that, or if that didn't happen then I could have been this. I found the answer to teh question quite easy and i'll answer for myself.

I, Robert B. Hillman owe all the loved ones who cared enough to say no. All the people who didnt cater to me. My mother who refused to quit and give up. My family who I didnt allow to love me. The many people who told me I would be great. The church who first claimed I would change lives.

I owe myself, not because I want to prove people wrong, or because I'm motivated by the many limitations others put on me. I do all I can because I know I can, I dont need anymore motivation than that.

I owe first and foremost my Father, my God, my Lord and my Savior. I thought for while
I could be and acheive greatness all by myself. I find strength in knowing he has my back. I find strength in knowing he's not judging me, he's loving me and allowing me to make decisions. The many mistakes I have made, the long dead end roads I have traveled, and yet I still have found a return to love.

To whom do I owe, except God and self?

Rob Hill

Thursday, August 21, 2008

Dear Life

“Too many fathers are M.I.A, too many fathers are AWOL, missing from too many lives and too many homes,” Mr. Obama said, to a chorus of approving murmurs from the audience. “They have abandoned their responsibilities, acting like boys instead of men. And the foundations of our families are weaker because of it.”

“We need fathers to realize that responsibility doesn’t just end at conception. That doesn’t just make you a father. What makes you a man is not the ability to have a child. Any fool can have a child. That doesn’t make you a father. It’s the courage to raise a child that makes you a father.”

“I know the toll it took on me, not having a father in the house, the hole in your heart when you don’t have a male figure in the home who can guide you and lead you. So I resolved many years ago that it was my obligation to break the cycle — that that if I could be anything in life, I would be a good father to my children.”

These quotes are from Democratic Presidential Nominee Barack Obama.

The african american male is slowly dying. More than just an "endangered species" as I once referred to us, we are an invisible/forgotten species. We have given society plenty reason to denounce our entire presence. The african american male was once seen as an impervious figure with unlimited potential and purpose. Somewhere in the mix of the world and its material things, we fell into a box and continue to hold ourselves captive against the expense of stepping up and doing what it takes.

My heart longs for a great awakening within our communities with the men, our women have carried the load for far too long. Have I all the answers, most certainly not? Yet I am willing to do whatever it takes to bring us back to relevance. Whether you choose to accept responsiblity or not, our community is denied progress everytime we make an excuse not to try and our children are set back that much farther everytime we refuse to fight. This problem did not arise today, and it will not be fixed tomorrow however, it is ever present and must be dealt with.

Rob Hill