Evidence

The pain is present and burning in my eyes
Confusion settles in and depression knocks on my door
I don't answer, I never answer, feelings aren't welcome here
Emotions left a long time ago
Is anything ever enough anymore?
Why do I reek of loneliness in a room full of people?
Why do I long for you when you only longed for him?
I cant deny my feelings but its evident that...

The pain is present and burning in my heart
I am told that things will come and go
And life has proven this to be fact
The happiness comes in the blink of an eye
But the pain takes forever to go
As much as I ignore it, as much as I run from it
The pain sharpens at the sight of you
Eye contact brings visions of you and him together
And when your gone I cant escape those thoughts
Shit I got played and it hurts but its evident that...

The pain is very present and burning in my soul
I hate cupid and his conniving ways
Shot me in my heart with an arrow to break down my guard
Then stab me in the back 30 times harder with his dagger of deception
My love was unconditional
My intentions were pure
My dedications was undeniable
My passion was true
But all of me has never been enough for half of you
The proof is in the evidence.

Letter to Life

Dear Life,

I was talking on the phone to a friend the other day. Just talking not about anything in particular and then she asked me, "Robert, why is it so hard to let it go?" I didnt really know how to respond being that it caught me off gaurd, but then I thought about it. I thought of questions I could ask myself to see why it would be hard to let it go.

1. Would I be scared to let it go because I fear being lonely?
2. Am I scared to let it go because it would hurt to see her with somebody else?
3. Am i scared to let it go because I dont want it to feel like I wasted my time?
4. Is it because I love this person and I should stick it out regardless of situation?
5. Or maybe I put too much work into for the next nigga to bear the fruits of my labor?
6. Am I scared to try something new?
7. Is it just easier being miserable than risking doing what it takes to be happy?
8. Is it just that I'm used to her?

I thought long and hard about the questions, but my answers to each one changed everytime i answered them. How do you just let go of something that has grown to be apart of you? Easier said than done thats for sure. Kinda like the old song, "See my days are cold without you, but I'm hurting while I'm with you..." LOL. Guess its like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. They say change is inevitable. Courage is the ability to let go of the familiar. It all sounds good, but how do you do it? Move on to the next? NOPE, thats just like sweeping dirt under the rug, sooner or later its bound to resurface.

I never really gave her an answer, I just shared those questions with her, in hopes that she could give me one.

Pain is pleasure right?

Rob Hill