Dream Somebody

you ever had somebody special in your life
like they ain't have to tell you they were special
you just knew
it was something about them that you just couldn't put your finger on
but that something had you thinking about them ALL THE TIME
that something had you hanging up the phone smiling for no reason
it had you in class daydreaming about skipping wit them
something that made every slow song on the radio remind you of them
or that something that had you replaying old conversations yall had in your mind and getting weak at the same things all over again
somebody who made you stare at the nights sky and make the stars spell their name
that person you didn't mind sitting on the phone with all night talking bout nothing
the type person that would kiss you with morning breath, but then tell you go brush your teeth
a person that wouldn't just tell you what they thought you wanted to hear
somebody who actually took the time to show they cared
someone who loved your flaws and accepted them as being apart of you
that person who knew just how to piss you off
and was smart enough to stop before it got there
then make you smile and laugh till you forgot it ever happened
the type person that took pride in making you happy
that someone that had been hurt before just like you
that had been unappreciated and taken for granted just like you
who gave their all and got nothing just like you
that person who could make you laugh till your stomach and cheeks hurt
you know, that somebody with that contagious smile
and those heart melting hugs
the type person who would kiss the tears away, because they felt wiping was too rough
somebody who believed in your smallest dreams
it was just something about their swagger
that person who could call you from a thousand different numbers
but you still recognize their voice
you know the person who you held hands with in the movies just to feel closer
you know...
well maybe you don't...
at least not like I do
because I do all these things
while I dream about you

Wake Up

One day you're going to want that guy.

That guy that knew he wasn't perfect,
but tried to be perfect for you.

The guy that believed the scraps of you he was given were worth it,
because something was better than nothing.

That guy who wanted nothing more than to be there for you,
and loving you was the only way he could.

The guy who sees your flaws,
but values them as much as your strengths.

That guy who still can't bring himself to hate you,
even though sometimes you probably deserve it.

That guy who saw past your pretty eyes,
and treasured parts of you that no one else has ever appreciated.

The guy who realizes he may never have your heart,
but will carry the image of you in his forever.

That guy that sees this and still LIKES you,
regardless of how self consumed you are.

That guy that should have you and your heart,
but doesn't.

Even though he deserves it.

Teach Me

I want to learn how to love you
I want to learn how to do all the little things you like to do
Those little things that will keep that beautiful smile on your face

I want to learn how to cook your favorite meals
Like macaroni and cheese, lasagna, steak, pasta, even salads

I want to learn how to be more compassionate
So I know when you need the kiss, the hug, or just a smile and a back rub

I want to learn when to say "let's talk about it"
Or when to just shut up and let time make it right

I want to learn how to slow dance
Because stepping on your feet ain't cool but I can't help it I'm clumsy

I want to learn how to run your bath water, not too hot or too cold, just right

I want to learn how to be more affectionate
Even if holding hands is wack to me, I can learn to like it for you

I want to learn to be more expressive and open about what's on my mind
Sharing feelings and all that is a lot easier said than done

I want to learn to trust and have faith without doubt

I want to learn the importance of sharing the same drink and same straw at the movies
And why it's so necessary to save the ticket stub for memories

I want to learn to be more spontaneous and keep up the spice
Like flowers for no reason or elementary secret admirer love notes with boxes to check

I want to learn when to just let you win
I want to know why sometimes "no" means "yes" and "stop" means "keep going"

Or why you get mad if I don't notice your new hairstyle or hair color
I want to learn the difference in a perm and a relaxer or blonde and bronze highlights
How am I supposed to know when it's a doobie or a silk wrap

I really just want to love you better the way you make me better
I'm ready and willing…
TEACH ME

Time

Its amazing what changes time can bring

Time plays with my mind allowing me to think i have nothing but time

See you cant put a time limit on what takes time

Yet the fact that time has started only lets me know time is running out

So as the clock clicks and time turns

I use my real eyes to realize the real lies that time has brought me

Time to appreciate the lives GOD has blessed my life with

Time to be thankful for the time I have been given

Because if I didnt know then well I definitely know now

Time is not promisedI see life as your gift and time as your blessing

The times I spent cussing and fussing

Or the times I spent holding grudges

Even the times I spent blocking my own blessings

I now look at those times and learn

And I thank GOD time has no relevance in Heaven

With each breath I hold life as a reminder that times clock is clicking

So rather than fight time, I use it on my side

With my time I will smile a little longer

And I will laugh a little harder

And I will think that much smarter

Because I know that time is not promised

So instead of sending flowers, let these words be roses

Now, Always and Forever

I LOVE YOU

Release

You ever had a feeling

I mean its not much else you can call it, its just a feeling

You cant always put what your feeling into words

But you know that your feeling some type of way

Well thats the way i feel right now
I'll try to break it down to you

LOVE...this sacred term of endearment

I cant front it means alot to me, for reasons i dont even know

And as a nigga, well man, it really aint supposed to be all that

BUT, plain and simple i understand that its necessary in life

Therefore i see it as a platform on which my feet will stand firm upon one day
"There is no such thing as a no good man, every no good man was created by a no good woman"
It takes something for a man to go astray

To start living for himself, to start "doing him"

Especially in my case, well my cases

I have plenty of horror stories, she lied, she cheated, she phony

But at this age i mean who doesnt, thats not my gripe at all
My problem is with the dream that is sold

I hate the dream sellersYou may refer to them as liars but to me, they sell dreams

The people who are too self-consumed to realize there are other people alive

To realize that other people have been hurt

To realize others have been lied to and cheated on

YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE

So many people, say they live this way or that way because of their past

Its nothing wrong with learning from your past

Just make sure the lessons you learn from your past benefit your future

Dont be the same person from the last relationship in your new one

Learn enough about yourself, be truthful enough with yourself to confront issues

People mess up and ruin thier happiness before it is even reached

Just because its not how you want it at first

You lie, quit and ruin anything that is to come

All because you are not woman or man enough to put in the work

If i know anything, i know LOVE and relationships are work

Nothing ever worth having will just be given to you

Enduring the fight and weathering the storm, strengthens you
Anything that is not tested will fail

There is no in between the truth and a lie

It is either TRUTH or LIES

When you are honest enough to be real with yourself

All that you deserve will come soon after

Love covers a multitude of sins

It does not remember wrong-doings by others

When you can forgive your past

Learn from your mistakes, and move on with all regrets behind you

Thats when love will meet you

And i will be the first to smile and tell you congratulations

Hopefully i will be there sooner than later

History In The Making

Lately I have been doing some routine self maintenance

I have noticed a few positives and a few negatives

And others that are just…. Others

There is common ground on all levels

It is my thinking that determines my circumstance

They say cut the head and the rest follows

If I think love then I will love

If I think success then I will succeed

If I think prosperity then I will prosper

And in that same breath

If i think depression then I will be depressed

If I think failure then I will fail

If I think regression then I will regress

My actions occur as my thoughts process

Yet I sometimes feel I have no control over my thoughts

As if its impossible to change them

I, however can not conform to impossibilities

Because I know through the door of possibility comes opportunity

As a man thinks, so he does

Its not what you do to me

Its not what my professor does to me

Its not what my boss does to me

It is what I allow to be done and how I react to it

Me, is the only thing stopping ME

I know I can not change until my thinking is changed

I have to learn from MY experiences

I can no longer place myself on hold blaming YOU

So before I forgive you, let me first forgive myself

For everything I denied and continuously deny myself

Know that my physical is a shell that may not reflect the beauty of its contents

Yet I am told through pressure a coal turns to diamond

Watch closely,

I am History in the Making